you ever had something to say to someone but know that there was no real use in saying anything?
that's how I'm feeling about now....
so instead of sending a letter, email, or wasting my minutes with a phone call...I will just get it all our right here...
Dear You,
I will not say I hate you. But I am actually quite glad that you have let go fully and leaving no safety net for me. Despite how you feel - I know my intentions. I hope you enjoy your life. Since you have officially settled for the consolation prize. I always knew that you didn't have the fight in you. I would say the same for myself, but I am confident in my decisions no matter how irrational to the "world" they may seem to be.
Dear You - yes you!
I can't believe how you reacted to me telling you the truth. I would expect that you would understand. But I have to remember everyone isn't me. Not saying I am perfect - I know I am far from that but at the same time. It just seems like your disdain came so quickly as if your love never truly exsisted.
Dear You - yep YOU TOO
WOW is all I have to say about the things that I heard. I can't believe I've allowed it to get under my skin as it has. But I have. Its funny growing up we vowed now to be those people, you know the ones who are fraud, the ones who shine up their sh!t to make it appear to be better than it is, the ones who tear down someone else to build themselves up - or perhaps I was the only one who felt that way. Even though you and I have had our ups and downs - I thought we were past CCHS, popularity contest, and BS. Alas, I've come to see I was right the WHOLE time about you and all those you associate with (except a chosen few), you are plastic and void of real emotion, thought, and feeling...wow
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that's enough letters for today maybe I'll write more later
